I don't believe in living life as it is.It has to be changed. Really. It's Just not right. Life has been Sucha Mess and it's jsut abt time to get it all right again. I can;t live like that being all stressed up about things it's just soo not, you know going the way it's meant to. I'm getting so paranoid. I probably am. I have been hiding behind this mask for so long. Laughing and being happy all. It's just not me. It jsut isn't. It's not i was meant to be. happiness is one thing but acting happy. just not good. I've been running away and i think i have ran for too long now. I should be taking a step now. but i just cannot. i can't! It's just not.. not right..........